JujuExOh

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 00:17:33 GMT

okay i tried adding people but it takes so long so add me please please

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Wed, 29 Jun 2005 23:55:21 GMT

EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HAVE A NEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LIVEJOURNAL JUST BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE STARTING CLEAN!
HAHAHA

add me

its

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Thu, 05 May 2005 13:40:11 GMT

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Fri, 22 Apr 2005 14:03:27 GMT

I. feel. like. crap.
being. at. school. sucks.

ugh not only does being at school suck but like its monday schedual which means i have ALL my classes. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i really have nothing to write about becauseeee im just going to complain about how much i hate being sick and how i blah blah blah haha.and how i feel like my eyes are crossed. (bad headach)

wow what a lame entry. haha

i cant wait for rocket summer
i cant wait for bright eyes
i cant wait tell i feel better
i cant wait tell this damn class is over
i cant wait tell school is over
i cant wait for um .......i dunno

[♥]

Another trip on juliannes random thoughts and stories

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 16:43:57 GMT

HI!!!!!

its been a while. Ive been real sick....like real sick. im feeling better though i mean im out of my bed. WOOT WOOT

ive missed three days of school. ahhhhhhhh im screwed. i get my pay check today though EFF YES!!!!!!!

Oh so i have a new favorite moive and its called In America. ANYONE SEEN IT??

well if you have tell me. i want to discuss it with you. haha<3

Oh so um the greatest thing in the world happened on Monday. So we had this like a motivational speaker guy come in he was actually funny... "DONT BE AVERAGE" haha. and well so like after the assembly jacob said he had a surprise for me and he pulls out a BRIGHT EYES TICKET HIS bright eyes ticket...... i seriosuly started tearing up... i didnt know what to say at alllll ahhhhhhhh well so im going to pay him back but still how amazing is that. ahhhhhhhh i love people...............at times.
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Latley i have just really loved my mom. i dunno she just is being really "cool" about things...i kinda just love her right now. which isnt to often..but serisouly...shes a great mom...and i need to realize that. without her i wouldnt have come to this self realization like that, i have this life..this one and only life why fucking screw it up and make it miserable.: )
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p.s confessions of a teenager drama queen is the weirdest moive ever.

p.s.s.s.s.s.s.s..ssdTQE% Ug

my brother made me tea yesterday and it was the best thing ever...it was like still cold...it was so cute!!!!!!! (my older brother, 18) and he like i dunno it was just so cute...ahaha

oh and what does p.s stand for?

YOUR GUNNA BRING YOUR SELF DOWNNNN

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 01:14:03 GMT

STORYYYYYY TIMEEEEE EEE E E E EEEEEE

So i went to that lame show last night, yea yea HEY CALLIE YOU STOLE MY JOKE!!!!! about the fear before and stuff!!! hahaha its oka yi love you so much!!! but ANYWAYS people and i were like dancing and the hole night i kept feeling this dripping on my arm and stuff and i was getting pissed, cause i thought it was the people above us. and then near the end of the show kinda... I started feeling a lot of it on my arm and then i look up and TONS OF WATER FALLS ON TOP OF ME LIKE A WATER FALL!!!i mean i got so soaked!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was so fun!!! although i was kinda scared so i grabbed on to Andy and i thin khe was like um weird. hahahahaha but it was so cool. but i got really cold and my lips got purple an di was worried i was going to die hahaha.

BUT IT WAS ACTUALLY FUN!!!! like the people were cool! yay

Jenna and Courtney are the funnest people alive and i love them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gawd they were amazing and getting lost with them was the best.

hahaha
<3<3

anywho.
i hope i can go to good life with erica
its not looking to promising
ugh i love her
i got to hear her cute voice today.yay!

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 14:15:49 GMT

HOOOKAY so erica must be the most amazing girl ever. i got to go on a date with her and it was so lovley we attempted at doing homework but it didnt work so well haha GAWD shes amazing. i love chating chat chat with her.

Um so i have a new favorite phone talker and his name is Shane. although we are like 10 and talk about video games all the time its still cute. And we complain about how bad we need money. haha
awh

I feel good today i dont know why. i just do. hehe.

hahaha
today going to school emily and i saw this bike that looked like it might have been hit by a car and we wer eliek AHHHHH THAT POOR LITTLE BIKE DIDNT DO ANYTHING WAHHHHH and like pretending it was liek road kill haha and then we saw a shopping cart that was knocked over in the road and we were liek OH MY GOD WAHHHH and then we saw ANOTHER SHOPPING CART about to be hit it was still standing hahaha it was so funny you had to be there serisouly. hahaha
whew

Um anyone going to underpoop? and crapiot? and fear before the march of suck a lot?

i think i am hahahahaha

i just want everyone to know i LOVE being a computer nerd. i just helped my friend out with his hole project thingy and i felt good cause i figured out and no one else could WOOT FREAKIN WOOT

im hungry
really hungry
i need to start working out

SIDE NOTE i stare to much. like people on the bus. i stare i need to stop cause i get mean faces back hhahaa

I LAV YEWWWWWW

and you and you
anddddddd you kinda

p.s does anyone want to like go somewhere this summer. because i am NOT i repeat NOT STAYING IN FREAKIN COLORADO ALL FREAKIN SUMMER LIKE MY LAST TWO

AHHHHH

p.s.s i love eva.

"can i get some paper towels....i spilled stuff." HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

oh the things we find funny
hahahahahahahha

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 21:38:53 GMT

FUCKING BRIGHT EYES SOLD OUT
YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW $%&%($*** PISSED I AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM GOING TO CRY
I HATE EVERY SINGLE PERSON WHO JUST BOUGHT A BRIGHT EYES
TICKET TO LOOK COOL
I HATE YOU
AND HOPE YOU HAVE A HORRIBLE TIME
AND TRIP ON YOUR WAY OUT!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
IM GOING TO DIE!!!!!!!!

i deserve to see them.

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 14:24:48 GMT

Okay okay okay I HATE TECH CLASSS!!!!! serisouly im suppose to be like building walls WTF?! yea i dont get it and im stuck on a part where it says i need to use the HOME key button um...ya...and im suppose to know exactly where that is!?!? haha. gross gross class. so many people in this class are so into it. Ugh to schooool.

Sorry i wasent really in a bad mood yesterday i was just jelouse about stuffffff.
but its all goood.

Im slaaappeeee today. And i really want an Enstiens bagle (plain, with strawberry cream cheese)
I was white washed and tackled a million times yestersay my neck hurts bad haha.
it was worth it in every way though.

Work was funny i had the funnest baby she would make this O face to make me laugh hahhaha i was like cracking up :O!! caute.

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OH MY GOD CAN SOMEONE JUST BUY ME A BRIGHT EYES TICKET AND I CAN PAY THEM BACK ON THE 21ST?!?!!?!?

IM GOING TO DIE. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
you will get your money I SWEAR! scouts honor. (?)

i hope all this snow dries up im sick of it now.

and i hope all of you have a good day. and um dont eat store bought oatmeal cream pies they are so gross. ugh im gunna puke.

(hahah this tech class has the weirdest people hahahah)

[♥]

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 02:23:05 GMT

BLAHWT qw$ $&$^(* %fij54RF

great snow day!
but im so not in a good mood.
i fucking HATE HATE wanting what i cant have.

p.s
i suck at making snowmans

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 17:25:03 GMT

going to bright eyes isnt looking so good.

(angry face)

i cant write unless there is silence so shut up

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 22:47:42 GMT

This entry could be long.

This is the first time in my life i have understood myself.In someways.

I came home crying.
ignored my mom as usual when she asks "Whats your problem." i go to my room. try to relax and just calm down. i couldnt do it this time...i couldnt hold it all in and just let it go away. i couldnt do it.

i came out of my room. and yelled at my mom. (yelled as in pleaded) I told her i didnt know what to do that im confused that im hurt that im finally breaking down. I think i told her more then i planned to..more then i wanted to. She gave me the advice i never wanted to hear before the adivice i took and threw it away. because it just mad me more upset. I told her im sad and im fake happy. She told me things i needed to hear and things i know are true. She told me," you have a gift...you can accept other peoples problems you can take them in you can make people happy you can give adivce, but you come first not your friends, if there is somthing wrong with you, take care of you. She told me that i observe things more the other and think deeper and learn from others and want to help so much. " I though how maybe this could be true... but ive taought myself to hide every little thing and just let them pass but it doesnt help...i told her i feel like i have this huge rock on top of my head and i wanna scream out and be like LISTEN TO ME LET ME TALK ASK ME WHATS WRONG i want YOU to make sure IM okay. Maybe id talk.

my mom told me that maybe it was the people i surround myself with. This made me so upset. but as we talked about i know its true... emily may be my best friend but she brings me down more then anything...shes never once asked me how are you? or helped me out. But ive helped her out more then i can imagin but shes still not happy....I cant surround myself with people who make me sad because ive changed so much from it...i cant always be the leader and make you happy icant fix things...but i try so hard. i dont want to see you sad... but inever once thought that maybe i was happier before cause the people who made my so happy and were more out going then i was...i get so down because im so sad everyone else is sad. Im done with this tryign to be someone im not caus ei know i do it. Eff the fucking scene fuck you. I hate drama...i hate it..i walk away from every little bit of it. life is not a fucking soap opera so stop the fucking drama. Your fake sadness. you hurt others around you.

I told my mom there are things she will never know about me and no one else and she said she accepts that and is fine with her that because she knows i will tell like 15 years from now because it wont matter.

I wanted emily to be the perfect best friend because i lost my best friend... i wanted her to be that friend up the street and we steal eachothers shoes and liek all the same things...i wanted to be somthing shes not...i expected to much from her...althought i love her...im worried that being away from her is better for me. to become me again. her problems arent mine to... (you have no idea how hard this is typign this)

Ive finally broke down. ive finally lost it. im done with it all. im throwing everything off my shoulders. Im taking everything away. i want to put this world on pause just for a little. i wanna leave this state forget all of you and start over to find out who i really am. I wanna know whoh are my true friends. Because i have realized ive never actually had that. (dont get me wrong there are a few i care about dearly)

I DONT want to find a boy. I DONT want to make someone there not. you FIND ME! fuck maybe ihave standerds for a guy and there DONT FUCKING CARE ABOUT ANYTHING FUCKING LOVE ME BUT FUCKING HAVE FUN!!!!!! THE WORLD IS NOT ENDING SO PLEASE MAKE A FOOL OF YOUR SELF PLEASE CALL ME UP TELLING ME YOU SAW SOMTHING FUNNY PLEASE JUST BE YOURSELF. STOP WITH YOUR FAKE EMOTIONS.

i do it to. i do this. you know it.

i told my mom, i would still like to see someone and shes fine with that. i feel i have an anger problem i get so angry inside that is scares me.

Maybe this is a turning point...maybe im figuring stuff out. life is a proccess my mom says. youll never actually know who you really are. what you want. cause there is always somthing you want. She told me i want to find myself so fast and easy but its not easy whats happenign to me now is somthing that i will learn from. Im going to start doing stuff i love. Im going to start hangingout with my drama friends i dont fucking care waht YOU THINK!!!!!!! im going to be me! the stupid retarded imature julianne FUCK YOU. im going to wear pajams when iw ant to. im gunna eat the fattest food i have ever eaten im going to wear my hair my clothes everything the way i want. im going to listen to my tom petty. im going to play keyboard to do what i love.

You be bring me down.
but im learning to care when i need to.
you bring me the fuck down.
but you need to know that im fucking not okay

Im not the same person i was, i know that.But i dont like who im becoming. Im not quiet, im loud really loud. yea ill probably stay bottled up with emotions and crap for a long time but youll see im grow from this.

tomorrow is a new day. and i already feel alittle relife.

sorry if this offended anyone.

Im dont being jelouse. lost.confused.

there is so much ihavent said in here, i wish i coudl repeat everyhting that hppened last night then you would get this entry alot more.

i love you.

just actually love me.

okay.

i got the number one fan cd finally. and randy's band is the best. they had a great performance.

[♥]

Hey you standing there

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 14:25:12 GMT

I know im not good.
I know im not great.
but stop yelling
because i cant speak
your words over power yours ears.
your thoughts over power your heart
lets reach out
lets speak out
ill try to speak
only if you'll listen
Ill try to hold on
only if you let go
Let me do this on my own
if you listen i will speak
if you understand ill speak
if you let me in ill speak
but you cant
your to loud
drowning in your own words
you cant get out now
your stuck
you know you have done wrong
there is no more holding on
ill let go
and stay quite
hiding in my shadows of silence
i wont speak cause you dont listen
i wont speak cause you dont understand
i wont speak cause you wont let me in
i am not great
i am not good
i shiver tell i freeze
tell all thoughts are gone
tell all silence appears
you give up
i give up
then tomorrow start again.

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some pictures i randomly took yesterday...

Coke and all american rejects

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 22:37:56 GMT

Yea thats right. coke. tyson ritter...and coke. not a good thing. hahaha So All American Rejects was probably the best thing ever!!!!!!!! and tyson was so messed up hahahaha. I love that band tell the end. But who i am even more obssed with is:::::♥::::::

Number one fan<3<3<3<3

ugh. so gorgeouse.
so amazing
i love this band<3

i talked to Nichols ^ really fast last night cause im a nerd. hahaha

Anyways so, great show i found a AAR guitar pick hahahaha. yea i took it. shut up. Ummm i got to see everyone it was so lovely. I GOT TO SEE SHAUN MY BEST FRIEND!!!!!!!

thats not that night thats a club smash night a long time ago.

School was boring and i was so tired today. ughhh death to school really.

but yay for may 6th!!

another rainy day

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 14:13:55 GMT

Ugh how much lamer could this rainy day get. I mean im not having a bad day but the rain really doesnt make me happy. A lot of people like rainy days,i guess im just not one for them.

Yesterday i had to take a long bus ride home...it was scary... i dont take the bus around all that much...but freaky people got on and i just felt stared at the hole time. i sat in the way backlike usual. Work is getting off to such a slow start, we have had barely any kids. Ive been watching alot of kid moives hahaha. like um dora the expoler and old power rangers haha. Ive colored alot of pictures. And played solitar at lest 15 times. and won like 5 times. haha.

Im dying to go to All American Rejects, but if i dont get money i cant go. And my dad hasent gaven me an answer yet to if i get money from him or not.annoying.

Blah.
In a weird way im kinda glad to be back at school. i dunno it gives me less time to think. All though i strongly dislike a verity of people at my school some people are awesome. My favorite people are the ones in my acting class. They could care less about everyone else saying stuff about them. There just so like care free and i love them.

OoOoo i found my carmex.just now YAY!!!

It should really not be so gross out side. RIGHT....NOW! STOP!

i can change subjects faster then anyone.

hahaha

I think Technology class is ridcoulse and boring as crap. yesterday my teacher didnt even come to class we didnt even have a subsitute haha she must not like it either.

im so just mumbling about nothing now.

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i love white ninja<3

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 03:23:52 GMT

all american rejects tomorrow.
praying i can go. ughhh.

<3

ill write more tomorrow.
im to tired from walking all day.

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 00:34:28 GMT

hey guys the pope died.

wow.

hey guys. diet orange soda is gross.

hey guys.
hey guys.

im bored.

i saw ring two wif justin. woot woot! it wasent scary!!! yay!
that night was a really funny night.

hey guys hey guys i feed my crust from my sandwhiches to my dog.

hey hey...im not going to club smash anymore..

heyhey
school starts soon

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 20:17:27 GMT

i might be leaving for a while in a couple of weeks. just a day or two.

<3

i cant wait for bright eyes.i cant wait for all american rejects. i cant wait.

hehe

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 21:13:03 GMT

i love how no one commented on my last entry hahahaha
so last night was a good night.i got to see julia FINALLY it was probably the highlight of my life. she tried to teach me how to smoke HAHAHAHAHA. you bad influence you. JUST KIDING!!!!!! i asked. ummmmmmm lets see....I GOT TO SEE JUSTIN TO!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND HIS BAND!!!!!! I LAVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV DAT BOY SO MUCH!!!!! AND I GOT TO SEE TORRE! AND OTHER PEOPLE AND LEVI AND MARSHALL TOOK ME!!!! it was fun as poop. hehe

then i came home
and stayed up tell
like 3 or somthing
and then
uhh that bout all now it now
and im abotu to go to work
all by myself on the bus haha

i talked to Kam today about things he made me feel really good about myself. WEIRD out of all people that suprised me.

i hope i do somthing tonight.

I LOVE JULIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 18:32:45 GMT

Robots OUT transformers IN.

yeshhhhh!

he he he

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 18:56:35 GMT

Today is Easter, i tried to make it fun for my little brother...cause he doesnt get it like how my older brother and i got to have it. It was cute i even woke up early and went to go look for the easter basket where his was full of stuff and i had some jelly beans and chapstick?! weird ya. haha then we died eggs and i made 4 really really cool ones. usually i mess up but i made a spotted one and all these other ones.

Yesterday was a great day. after work i got with emily and we went to the mall and some girls made fun of us and they did the like L on the fore head hahahahaha wtf?!?! it was weird, we ate cinnibon like always. it was cute. but im not a shopper so i get tired easily. Then after i called Justin and we went and got him at his work and hung out and we to um Barnes and Nobel and it was cute THEY HAVE A LOT OF GOOD CD'S. Then we randomly stoped in a parking lot and DANCED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT WAS SO GREAT GUYS OH MY GOD DANCIN GIN A PARKING LOT SERISOULY JUST MADE ME FEEL SO GOOD...sept i was the only one dancing.....hahaha and justin just made fun of me. And then we took justin home at 11:30 and i walked him to his door. adorableeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Oh and emily taught me this AMAZING CARD GAME THINGY i must show it to everyone so if you want me to just ask and we will hang out and ill do it to.

So i got home and called justin and we talked and i watched Beauty and the Beast and then NO ELLLL haha called!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! best thing ever!!! so i talked to him tell 2 somthing it was amazing. NOEL YOU ARE THE CUTEST THING I HAVE EVER TALKED TO ON THE PHONE i absolutley love you!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhh ill be renting you soon hahahaha.awh...

yay for cutness and awesomeness and amazingness and ugh.

im in a good mood.
And emily is.
and everyone is.
and and...

i love E.E Cummings.

[♥],
me always.

Tear me APART

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 21:59:24 GMT

I started my job and right off the back i had to change a dirty diaper. gross.

it wasent bad.
i went to lucnh with my bbffel it was great!

now im home once again alone. emily told great news abou ther which made me happy to hear her and see her happy...hopefully my turn will come soon.

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I had the notion that you'd make me change my ways
My bad habits would be gone in a matter of days
I had the feeling that you'd open up my eyes
To a whole new world that had since been in disguise

But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are

So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far

I had the notion that you'd make me forget the world
But your undecisive mind shows me that
You are "just another girl"
I had the feeling that those looks you gave me were real
What if I ripped your heart apart at the seams
Maybe then you'd know how I feel

But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are

So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far

I can honestly say
That I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body
That cause my comatose to begin

I can honestly say
That I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body
That cause my comatose to begin

I will sleep another day
I don't really need to anyway
What's the point when my dreams are infected
With words you used to say
I will breathe in a moment
As long as I keep my distance
I wouldn't want to go messing anything up

So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about you constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
Your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door

So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about you constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
Your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door

I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
I guess that's how this one's gonna go I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
You've got me down on my knees and I proclaim
All hail the heartbreaker

Fri, 25 Mar 2005 04:13:05 GMT

ITS SNOWING!!!!!!!!!!!!

my hands are so cold!! gross snow haha
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um so those are snow flakes...

DO A DANCE SO WE DONT HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW! dance dance

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 23:20:00 GMT

Hey...um..im sorry my entries have been so shitty and dumb...things are really getting better i started my job and it was wonderfull. i get a cool South Suburben shirt hahaha. i have missed two days of school this week cause of being sick. um..ya thats pretty much it. OH i got my hair cut. haha a while ago by Jess she is so amazing at cutting hair and so adorable and kyle i love those girls so much.

Spring break soon. i hope to see people i havent seen in awhile.

Emily i care for you so much but your attitude affects me so much and i wish you could just be happy and i wish we could help one another. But you have to try because the way you act affects others and your mood swings are bothering me. im your friend you can talk to me but dont bring me down.

(♥)

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 23:55:26 GMT

okay now im sick.

gah to you, you and you.

yes you

and you.

sept you cause youre cute.

things are so messsssssed up. i decided to ignore it...let it pass pretend im happy
and then things will go by and i can actually be happy...again. I just cant handle things when i get told i have changed and im not the hyper julianne anymore it hurts so bad. my parents think...well never mind i dont want to talk about this.

I start my job tomorrow...good news i guess.

um i love rocket summer. so much.I wish he could be mine<3

I miss my girlfriend so much...